póg an bháis

love of mine… i wont follow you into the dark

when you would not follow me, I dragged you out of life and tainted your inocence

I am a diseas, an infection that was meant for good and harbors evil

my darkness is still and silent and you life is loud and bright

i live in a world where only blood on my lips quenches my thirst

where my teeth tear the seams of flesh and wrench forth a new creature from its mask

i run through the valley of the shadow of death and tap mr.death on the shoulder and hope he’ll take me soon on the journey to death

my ability to love exceeds normal human nature and even still when love blossems and blooms my inner fire, my infactous diseas kills it

I do not want pitty, i want solace, i am done with you who i spent my life with that point thier fingers everywhere at the other people with pointed fingers where no one will look for the problem in themselves

I have purged my life of those people and now what do i have? nothing. no one. no love. no hope. only a fading ablity to stay close to God.

I am an open but you people wont take the time to read my pages, so dont come asking me how i am, dont try to reach me when i am one of the few that arent lost, i dont want your sorrow or conversation, i want you to find in yourselve the flaws that i cant help but to see in the mirror every day and work on the change.

I am not the child you know and see, I am slightly different but in what ways is for you to find out through time. I fear no evil and I pray that death greets me no earlier or later than it will, i just have a lot of thoughts that need to be said and a maybe ill find the cure do my diseased love

And so life moved

Like a wave but it never tried to soothe
Like the tide but it did not rise to draw me close
It fell to pull me away
It moved to change and I wish it would hurt
But I have felt the most so now I guess nothing really hurts
It’s like my skin is a shirt
Something inside me is tearing the seams of my flesh
Fleeing to the sky and the stars
Fleeing from past wounds, my scars
time is pulling me away from life
I guess I wasnt to find my wife
I need solace
Fit my soul screams the secrets of this world
My mind toils and heart twirls
I can’t feel but I’m not numb
I’m sad but not undone
Time pulls me to golden shore of heavens gate
That’s fine, I didn’t even expect to survive until forty eight
Years from now I’ll be a whisper in your memory
Here then gone like a dream
So find your love my sweet
Find the one who sweeps you off your feet
I deserve the cold winter
You deserve the comfort and warmth of a love not splintered
My heart is cursed to wonder alone
Yours is one that is hunted and won
I live and love each passing girl
But none above the one the twirls my heart and breaks free my soul
There is a girl with a key out there for me I pray she can keep me totally free

I rise as the sun goes down

and I pray my true love and I find a way to each other soon or never

I have a rendezvous with death

At some disputed barricade,
When Spring comes back with rustling shade
And apple-blossoms fill the air—
I have a rendezvous with Death 5
When Spring brings back blue days and fair.

It may be he shall take my hand
And lead me into his dark land
And close my eyes and quench my breath—
It may be I shall pass him still. 10
I have a rendezvous with Death
On some scarred slope of battered hill,
When Spring comes round again this year
And the first meadow-flowers appear.

God knows ‘twere better to be deep 15
Pillowed in silk and scented down,
Where love throbs out in blissful sleep,
Pulse nigh to pulse, and breath to breath,
Where hushed awakenings are dear…
But I’ve a rendezvous with Death 20
At midnight in some flaming town,
When Spring trips north again this year,
And I to my pledged word am true,
I shall not fail that rendezvous.

Should we stand?

Will we fall?

You said those words

“we need to talk”

My heart has burned and sunk deep

Those words are poison, your lips are the needle

Why build a chapel and tear down the steeple?

I fear for loss and I fear for gain

If I lose my heart

Does my freedom rein?

I need this now and you will see

That the last good thing for you is me

I wish we could stay and hope

I pray that we, this day, will cope

We walk these roads on streets unending

The paths that have crossed are now pending

How could I leave what I have loved?

How could this choice be decided?

I chased you from one earth to the other

I caught you and told your mother

You say you’ll follow me

Yet you run more and more

I have lost, you’re out the door

Locked away

I’m imprisoned in so called freedom

How am I liberated from the sky?

My heart would soar and soul would fly

Freedom is captive

We will never know

We die in the cold of this snow

Beauty had overtaken

And my heart was awakened

So how is it now that I may be told to choose?

Between true life and love

And the freedom that is not set loose?

I end this with hope of living in the eyes of an angel

With beauty of a rose and from every angle

The one who broken my chains and tied me with ropes

I’d rather a leash than the devil’s cold metal grope

My wrists have healed in her hands and my eye have seen not great beauty

The only thing to do is wait.

So it is my call, my duty

To maybe leave or maybe stay

-a day before november

A day before november

There is no glory

There is no relief

We walk through this darkness

Fill with nothing but tables that bruise our knees

And reap our lives

The stars no longer light the way

The moon is blood red

The threat of death is hanging over our heads

Without this cold

Without this lie

We will to fall

We want to die

Nothing compares to this pain from inside

There is no blade that could even try

The horror of October is spread through our hearts

Halloween is here for murderers in dark

(Talking) And ye though a walk through the valley of the shadow I death

(growl) I will fear no evil

(talking) for evil is nothing but fear

 fear of what we can’t handle

so deal with it

and light it with a candle

Nothing compares to this pain from inside

There is no blade that could even try

The horror of October is spread through our hearts

So tell me my dear

Why must we part?

We were two wrongs trying to make a right

We were two lost causes

Trying to find meaning in meaningless lives

So tonight we live in fear of the dark

The dark that has always surrounded all of our hearts

I need you here so please my dear

Don’t let me go